Hey gd mrn all! Just wake up from my slp and having a bloody sucky feeling inside me nw, having depression and pre-pressure in my head and some sad and happy memories has enter deeply into my subconcious mind that i keep having me to think so much and flashback too. How i wish i can turn back to the time when im happy where i and wif my gf and that close best fren wif her bro like last time. Nw sadly he has begin to hav a negative mind set of me and i dunno why and the worst thing people anrd him are also affected also when i have atone for my past mistake but he still so reluctant and when ever i ask him abt his problem and thing that i need to know then he will show me a fk face as if im in fully to be blame. I just wan to be a elder brother to show care and love for him and he keep interpreted me in the wrong impression of me! I feel so tired to keep pleasing him the way which some part he just dun give me respect or give in into me. Each day keep passing and is keep getting closer to the day where both my precious go overseas and might not come back. There is also a thing that since he wan to go off really soon le then i ask him to meet up wif me then i duno if he's avoiding me or is he really that bz, but i just want to spend this few precious weeks wif him before he depart away frm singapore. I just hope that ltr i can be able to meet him up as ages i haven meet him liao:( My life have change so drasticly til the point where im nw so emotionally affected by ppl life's. I really hope that happiness can really return to me so i can smile like there's no tomorrow like that:( Lastly i hate ppl who help me and half way run away is really evil to do that and if i gt thing i sure share but i gt problems some will run away! Im living on a mess up life nw! I nid a turning points right here:( If u guys up there care for me help me and please dun ever run away frm me when u are getting tired coz here you will need alot of time to sacrifice to help me. But if want run then fk off pls!:'(
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